Tell Me If It's Chilly Outside

I’ve been running for a long time. I’ve seen far too many dead ends. I can’t keep on living like this.
 
I need direction. I need clarity. I’m working on a revelation.
 
I think, I have more to offer. I think, I should do because I can. I think envious thoughts.
 
I want this. I want that. I have a worn out treadmill.