Tell Me If It's Chilly Outside

There has never been a point in my life where I’ve been outgoing without a hidden motive. If I have a reason to be outgoing then I’m outgoing. Without that alternate motivation I lack the capacity to be outward.
 
There are definitely times when my own personal reasons are important enough to me that I can make myself do that which I do not want to do. It doesn’t happen everyday. I’m okay with being unintentional.
 
I’m not okay with the amount of regret that is the result of those times that I do truly want to do something but lack the correct amount of courage to overthrow this consuming phobia. These happenings occur more than one would like.